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To all my Fellow Bloggers who participated in Blogmas, WELL DONE!!!! It is not easy coming up with 25 Blog Posts and to be clear I had only planned out some of these posts. For most of them, I was just winging it, and I did not stick to only holiday themed posts. It’s especially hard to meet such a challenge, if you have lots of other things on your plate of life. I almost quit a few days back LOL!! I attempted Blogmas last year and I failed. But this year I completed the challenge, and what an awesome challenge it was! I’m proud of myself and you should be proud of yourself!!! If you took the time out to read my Blog, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I hope you enjoyed my creativity, expressions and thoughts. My hope as with any of my Blog Posts, is that you leave here inspired, motivated, that your thoughts are provoked, and maybe you’re a little hot and bothered LOL! I thoroughly enjoyed this, and now I will be taking a break from this Blog!!

Now, it’s time for me to enjoy Christmas and spend time with my family!❤️

 

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S!!!!!!!!!

B E W E L L!!!!!

Fix Me

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To be completely honest, I once considered having plastic surgery because I hated my body. After having three children, my stomach wasn’t as flat as it once was. I gained a considerable amount of weight, and I just wanted zero parts of my new body. At the time, I didn’t fully understand nor did I realize just how much my body would change after giving birth to three children. So, I decided that plastic surgery would prove to be the perfect fix. I was thin and fit once upon a time, and I wanted to get back to that. I wanted to get back to that body quick, and scrolling through social media didn’t help. I used to wear cropped tops all the time. My stomach used to be my most favorite part of my body. I was always showing it off and I wanted to be able to do that again. I wanted to wear bikinis on the beach. I just didn’t feel sexy, and I wanted to feel sexy again. I didn’t believe I could be sexy again or wear some of the same things until I fixed my body. My body wasn’t pretty and I hated what I saw in the mirror.

The internet is filled with false expectations, and misinterpretations of a woman’s body form. They lead you to believe that all women should have flat stomaches, small waists, and big butts. They want you to believe that once the baby is born, it’s all about the rapid bounce back or the snap back. It’s misleading and it has never been my reality. The truth is that all of our bodies are different, and respond differently after giving birth. There’s no need to rush, and there is nothing wrong with real natural bodies. Social Media has some of us questioning whether a woman’s natural body is real or not simply because so many women are getting surgery nowadays. It’s hard for some to believe the same body built in the operating room, can also be built in the gym. It can be done and it has been done. I was so close to jumping on that operating table because I was insecure, I fell into the social media trap, and I just felt unattractive. Then I woke up, and I thought about it more and more. I thought about it deeper. I had to ask myself some very imperative questions. Why was I doing this? What are the side effects? Is it going to fix my insecurities? Is it going to make me feel better? Is it going to make me pretty? Is it going to make me more desirable? Is it going to fix me? When I answered these questions, I knew that I couldn’t go through with the surgery. I couldn’t. Yes plastic surgery would’ve fixed my outer appearance, but it wouldn’t fix my struggles within. I had LOTS of struggles buried inside of me, and it would’ve only served as a temporary mask. I am in no way knocking women who’ve gotten or who are thinking about getting plastic surgery. Do whatever makes you happy! But you should know that plastic surgery is not a cure for insecurities, or a lack of self love and self validation. You can sweep your shit under the rug all day, but it’ll still be there under the rug, waiting on you to deal with it. I’m saying if you’re going to do it, make sure you’re doing it for the right reasons. No I didn’t go through with the surgery, but I did change my eating habits. I did go to the gym. I also started being more kind to myself, more patient with myself, and I started my long journey to self love. It sure wasn’t a quick process nor was it easy. However, it was worth it!!!

 

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Treasure Letter

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Dear Young Queens,   

You are a QUEEN and you should carry yourself as such. You have a crown and you sit on a throne. A throne that has been kept warm by other Queens who came before you. You should know that you are special. You should know that you’re worth more than gold. You are a rare beauty and you come from long lines of rare beauties. Your soul is unmatched and fluorescent. You are a treasure QUEEN, and you are meant to be treasured. You’re powerful beyond measure. You just need to discover it, and use your power. You don’t need validation from others. You just need to validate yourself. You don’t need his love if he doesn’t want you to have it. You need to find self love, love yourself first, and foremost. There is no greater love. In case you didn’t know all of this already, let this serve as your constant reminder.

 

Sincerely,

L I N N E A

 

 

 

 

 

Twenty Four!

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We all get the same twenty-four hours a day. The difference is what we choose to do with those hours. Come take this journey with me as I layout my twenty four hours…

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MONDAY THROUGH FRIDAY

5:00 AM-6:15 AM– Around this time, I am just waking up, wiping the crust out of my eyes LOL, and watching the news. I love watching WBFF Fox 45 news (I love me some Patrice and Tom) mostly to see the weather, TRUMP IMPEACHMENT NEWS, and local news. I turn on my phone to scroll through Instagram to see what’s popping, check dms, and respond to comments from my loves. I head on over to my personal, and business emails to check messages and respond. I usually form a list of people that I’d like to reach out to for my Podcast and or my Blog. I send out and respond to about 15-20 emails a day. Yup! This is how I start off my day.

6:15 AM-7:45 AM– I’m up and out of the bed. The entire house is up and out of bed. I gather the kids, and get them moving and ready for school. My kids are older, so they can get their own breakfast, shower, and dress themselves. I just have to make sure everyone is matching LOL, coordination is key. My youngest doesn’t quite get it yet, so I always have to pick out another outfit for him lol. At last, I prepare myself for my regular 9-5 day job and off I go!

7:45 AM-6:30 PM– Now, here it gets SUPER busy. I’m still settling into my new Managerial role at my job which requires more of my time, more effort, more patience, and I don’t mind at all. Moving up is what it’s all about. During my down time, and on my lunch break, I check emails, edit Podcast episodes, conjure up more ideas for episodes, and write for Blogmas. Oh yes…I decided to re enter Blogmas this year. I failed last year, horribly. But I love a great challenge, I love writing, and I don’t quit. For those who don’t know what Blogmas is, it is a creative writing and fun challenge for Bloggers all over. We produce/create 25 BLOG posts starting Dec 1st through Dec 25th. I think initially it was meant to be Holiday/Christmas themed posts. However, you can blog about whatever you want. Personally, I don’t stick to just Holiday themes. I make up my own rules LOL! I’m feisty and spicy.

6:30 PM-9:00 PM– WORK REALLY STARTS NOW! As soon as I get home, I cook dinner for my family. I cook dinner for my family every single day EXCEPT for Fridays and Saturdays. While dinner is on, the kids are doing their homework. Here’s where I put my multitasking abilities into overdrive. I tend to the kids who always need something or they just like to call me because they love the word “Mommy” LOL. Daddy is usually standing right there in the kitchen, but they’ll bypass him to get to me. After tending to them, I like to spend a little time in my SANCTUARY AKA THE BATHROOM LOL. There I can sit in peace and tranquility. Then, I prepare to record my Podcast episodes and edit. First of all, editing is very time consuming! Whenever I’m doing interviews, (FUN FACT) I usually don’t have my questions fully prepared. I wing it a lot of the time because I already know what questions I want to ask. Then, there are those few times where I do prepare, but I end up changing the questions up as I’m conducting the interview. Sometimes, something else pops up in mind, a question I really want to ask. Soon after I’m done recording, I’m thinking about new episodes.

9:00 PM-12:00 MIDNIGHT– YESSSSS!!! -The kids are in bed. I’m just getting around to eating my dinner. I work on my book for about an hour which I hope to release in 2020. I check emails once more, Instagram, and watch a show/movie. This is my ME time and sometimes I might indulge in some grown up activities LOL!

A N D REPEAT THE NEXT DAY!

 

Here’s the thing…I have worked hard all of my life and I will not stop now. Every job I ever had, I went above and beyond. I always do my absolute best and I will not stop now. I have so much that I want to accomplish, so many dreams, and goals. As long as God keeps allowing me to see new days, I will keep working. I want to live and work long enough to see a million dollars. I want to give my kids everything and I want the very best for them. I want a house, I want to create merchandise to sell, and so much more! I want to get fancy Podcast equipment and upgrade my show. I want to do so much! I can and I will. Nobody owes me anything and I will keep grinding. I’ll keep putting in the work. I’m trying to build my own empire from ground zero. Just to keep it real with you all, I get overwhelmed and discouraged at times because I feel it’s not happening fast enough for me. Then, self doubt starts creeping up on me and I question why I’m even doing all of this. I’m not perfect. But, I have to quickly remind myself that I’m a BADASS, CREATIVE, GIFTED, TALENTED, INTELLIGENT QUEEN, AND I GOT THIS! ANNDDD YOU! YES YOU! YOU GOT THIS!!!

You have twenty four hours to make anything happen. How are you going to spend yours?

 

 

 

 

 

WOLF HER

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Not your average wolf…

I’m normally quiet and I like to stay hidden. Though, I’ve been known to bring the noise when they send for me. I eat diamonds for breakfast and spit out gems. I run with wolves, but they always end up following my lead. It’s shocking to some that a pack of wolves would choose me to be their Queen. They can feel my strength, my aura, and I’m very hard to refuse. Depending on how you treat me love, I can be the beginning to your end. I am invincible and sometimes quite unrecognizable. I’m trying to warn you darling for I possess the power to make things, and individuals go invisible. Have you ever heard of Fire and Ice? I refuse to travel without bringing the storm. I’ll bring the forest down, shake the trees, and break the ground. I’m fluent in fire and will burn you if you speak out of turn. HER tongue is wicked. You’ve been warned!

I am Wolf HER!

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B4628FBF-4672-4F51-B87C-64A3FB89B4B9She really needs no introduction. But let me tell you a little something about her…

She is a unique treasure. A gem of a beauty and  filled with sparkling passion. When in rare form, she holds the power to eat you up and spit you out if she so chooses. IF SHE CHOOSES. She smells like a meadow growing berries and other sweet fruits of her magnetic labor. The meadow has never seen a drought and knows no drought. She can run a marathon of sturdy circles around you without ever growing tired. The most seasoned marathon runner can’t even hold a flame to her. There is no one quite like her. She houses a suction of magical kryptonite. She is hypnotic. She is powerful. She is great. An aphrodisiac. Your only drug of choice. She is not of this world. Fair warning…

If she invites you in and you oblige. Well…if you enter the great walls of her. If she gets a hold of you, you will forever be changed. Be careful love.

 

Linnea

Happy Now

When I awake in the mornings, there is a peaceful noise. There is a permanent smile that appears to have awaken within me. I’ve never felt a smile quite like this one before. Well…I have in my dreams a few times. It’s so powerful for it to have reached my soul, powerful. My soul is smiling so vibrantly. I can’t seem to contain my excitement nor my energy. My energy is not just good. It’s electric and it’s a shock to me. I can only imagine what it will do once I’m in the company of others. Maybe it will latch onto them and work its wonderful magic. The dark clouds might still come around but I can’t acknowledge them anymore. I’m too full on peace and happiness. The sun drowns out the clouds and is always shining so bright wherever I go. I put my trust into the trail of sunshine and now I’m shining. I’m floating because I feel lighter. I’m free and I’m happy now. 

 

How did I reach my “Happy Now”? I’m doing what makes me happy. Oh and I removed toxic beings & things from my life.

Linnea

 

Be Well!