Aunt C

Death landed on our doorstep yet again. But this time, it came for my beloved Aunt Cookie. My Aunt and I had a very special bond that could never be broken. No not even in death. She was my second mother and she called me her “Poopsie”, yes she did LOL. She called me that when I was much younger and would later switch it up. Once I got older, she called me “Nae Nae” “Nea” or Linnea. My love for shopping and watching tv was birthed through her. Oh how she loved her tv shows. Especially the westerns and soap operas. Every time she saw me she would ask me, “Nea did you watch the stories?” Young and the Restless was her absolute favorite lol. I can’t even put into words the pain I felt (the pain I still feel) when I got that AWFUL phone call. The call that all of us dread. She died and I just froze up so bad. I actually had a panic attack, anxiety, and it was an outer body experience. I was in shock, disbelief, and pure sadness. I had just seen her not too long ago at the Nursing Home facility where she stayed. We watched tv, chatted a bit, and then I left. Why didn’t I stay longer?! Little did I know, that would be the very last time I would ever see her in the land of the living. I know it’s cliche but I truly thought my Aunt Cookie would live forever!!!! She was soooo sweet, special, beautiful, and kind to all who she crossed paths with. She was a true gift from God and the rarest of souls. A soul that I’ll always cherish in my fondest memories of her. It will be different and VERY difficult without her. It hurts, the pain feels unbearable in all honesty and I can’t understand it. However, I will never question GOD. I LOVE you soooo much Aunt Cookie FOREVER and ALWAYS! I promise to make you proud and I promise to leave my mark on this world while I’m here. You will live through me and I’ll see you again one day.

We laid her to rest today and now let the healing begin…

❤️

 

 

Advertisements

Are YOU OK?

Are you ok?

This is a pretty simple question right? Seems like it. Well…not exactly. Whether you’d like to believe it or not, realize it or not, there are many people walking around right now and they are in fact not ok. People you walk by daily, people you work with, people you’re related to, people you’re friends with, people you laugh with, and just people you cross paths with in general. But with all the hustle and bustle of life’s grueling duties, it never really occurs to any of us to stop and ask the question. “Are you ok?” is a powerful question and packs a healing punch. In many cases, it holds the key to the caged up pain. It could possibly change the course of a person’s day. It could possibly change the course of a life. Just because one wears their smile extremely well, does not mean they’re ok. Lots of people hide behind smiles and laughter which is why you have to pay close attention to the eyes. The eyes never lie. The eyes will give you a keen view into the soul and tell the truest story. It is the gateway. So many people are hurting in silence and are crying out in silence. Asking someone if they’re ok will cost you absolutely nothing and it’s even more priceless for them. I know what you may be thinking. Why doesn’t the person in need just ask for help? Why do I have to ask them if they’re ok? It’s so much more complex. Most people who are battling something in silence, feel like they have no one to turn to for various reasons. They may suffer from abandonment issues, they’re broken, they’ve been abused, and the list can go on. They feel like no one understands them, they’re afraid, and they don’t trust so easily. If you were getting hurt on a daily basis by someone who claimed to love you or if you were being bullied on a daily basis, Would you speak up so easily? What if you placed your trust in more people than you could count on two hands only for it to be broken every single time? Would you speak up so easily then? When humanity has failed you repeatedly, would you speak up so easily then? No I am in no way telling you that you need to be a savior or that you’re required to ask, “Are you ok”. But let me remind you in a friendly fashion, that it costs you nothing to show kindness and compassion for another human being. Another human being like you and one day you might be the one suffering in silence.

Recently, Meghan Markle did an interview and out of everything she said, there is one statement she made that has been embedded into my mind ever since. She said, “Thank you for asking because not many people have asked me if I’m ok”. Wow, I really felt that and her eyes screamed pure sadness. This is an example of how we all get so wrapped up in our own lives that we forget to be human and we forget to show compassion for one another. So I challenge you all who have taken time out to read this, I challenge you to check on someone today and ask them if they’re ok. I challenge you to leave someone better than you found them.

 

BE WELL!

Queens V

B4628FBF-4672-4F51-B87C-64A3FB89B4B9She really needs no introduction. But let me tell you a little something about her…

She is a unique treasure. A gem of a beauty and  filled with sparkling passion. When in rare form, she holds the power to eat you up and spit you out if she so chooses. IF SHE CHOOSES. She smells like a meadow growing berries and other sweet fruits of her magnetic labor. The meadow has never seen a drought and knows no drought. She can run a marathon of sturdy circles around you without ever growing tired. The most seasoned marathon runner can’t even hold a flame to her. There is no one quite like her. She houses a suction of magical kryptonite. She is hypnotic. She is powerful. She is great. An aphrodisiac. Your only drug of choice. She is not of this world. Fair warning…

If she invites you in and you oblige. Well…if you enter the great walls of her. If she gets a hold of you, you will forever be changed. Be careful love.

 

Linnea

Happy Now

When I awake in the mornings, there is a peaceful noise. There is a permanent smile that appears to have awaken within me. I’ve never felt a smile quite like this one before. Well…I have in my dreams a few times. It’s so powerful for it to have reached my soul, powerful. My soul is smiling so vibrantly. I can’t seem to contain my excitement nor my energy. My energy is not just good. It’s electric and it’s a shock to me. I can only imagine what it will do once I’m in the company of others. Maybe it will latch onto them and work its wonderful magic. The dark clouds might still come around but I can’t acknowledge them anymore. I’m too full on peace and happiness. The sun drowns out the clouds and is always shining so bright wherever I go. I put my trust into the trail of sunshine and now I’m shining. I’m floating because I feel lighter. I’m free and I’m happy now. 

 

How did I reach my “Happy Now”? I’m doing what makes me happy. Oh and I removed toxic beings & things from my life.

Linnea

 

Be Well!

HER MOUTH PART 2

 

She opens up her mouth, spits out words that’ll shake the core of your soul. She speaks empowering words of power and they cut deep. Skin deep, seeping into your pores, leaving an unforgettable, everlasting imprint of impression. When she speaks, the world stands still. The world listens for there is no noise, only a soft wind blows. When she speaks, it’s an outer body experience. When she speaks, you listen. She speaks in angelic tongue, heavenly even. Her mouth is filled to capacity in depth and serves as a strong source of substance. Her mouth is the only force to be reckoned with. So tread lightly darling.

 

-Linnea

Where was I?

9/11

I was eating in the lunch room with my best friend Larryn at College, just chopping it up, and I was just about to finish up. This was our everyday routine. I looked at the time because I had a Math class that I needed to get to soon which I wasn’t really looking forward to at all lol. In fact, I dreaded going. As soon as I started getting ready to get up from the table, I glanced over at the tv, and couldn’t really make sense of what I was seeing initially. I heard all these people in back of me yelling in synch, “Oh my God”, and more people started piling up in the lunch room. We were all standing around the tv witnessing horror. An unfathomable horror. What we were witnessing was a terrorist attack, planes flew into the Twin Towers, and the Pentagon like it was nothing. We were all stuck, eyes glued to the tv. I guess we were all in somewhat of a state of shock and still trying to process what was happening. Then, everyone started looking for their cellphones including myself. I needed to call my family to make sure they were accounted for and ok. I needed to figure out how I was gonna get home. I called my mother and just about everyone in my family. But my uncle. My uncle was supposed to have a meeting that morning at the Twin Towers. He owned a cleaning business and he was set to sign the contract for his team to start cleaning some offices at the Twin Towers. I used to say “for some reason” he didn’t make it there. I quickly realized it was God and I know that statement could lead others to confusion as to why their loved ones were there. Why did their loved ones have to die? Why didn’t God intervene? I can’t begin to answer such a heavy question. My uncle is no longer with us due to other reasons. Though he could’ve left us that day. So after I called everyone I needed to call, I wanted to get home as soon as possible. I was afraid and at that time, I didn’t know what was coming next. We all were panicking and afraid of the unknown. Larryn said, “Linnea Come on we are leaving now.” Without thinking I grabbed all of my things and we rushed out the door. There were so many people outside running to their cars and the parking lot was beyond jammed packed. It took us about 45 minutes to get out of the parking lot. Once we got onto the main road, it looked like a scene out of one of those Zombie movies where everyone is trying to leave before the Zombies attack. It was wild and it was like an out of body experience. I had never seen anything like that before. I got home 3 hours later and that ride home was intense. We almost crashed a couple times and it was bumper to bumper. I called my mother two more times while I was in the car because she was and is still the only person in this world who can calm my soul. Larryn was a superb driver and held her composure THEE entire time. I loved how strong she was and I miss her so much! Larryn is no longer with us due to other reasons as well. This day I will never forget.

The aftermath was a continuous and painful reminder of all the bloodshed. I watched all the news coverage and documentaries. I heard the 911 calls that came in on that tragic day. People jumping out of windows, people covered in so much debris, they were unrecognizable. First Responders, Firefighters, and sooooo many people died. Families were broken and the damage was catastrophic. It still makes no sense at all. To say it was sad would be putting it lightly for there are no words. Most of the people that survived that day, later died due to health problems they developed after 9/11. So many people lost their lives that day. I can’t even begin to imagine what it was like for them being inside, dying inside those burning buildings nor could I ever imagine what it was like being on a plane knowing it was going to crash. Knowing death was quickly inevitable for them. I don’t understand and I won’t pretend to. Those people left home, went on about their daily routines like they did everyday. Not knowing what was coming. Life is so short. My thoughts and prayers will always be with all those affected. This day, we remember.

 

 

Interview with Malinda Williams and Tariq Walker!

 

F0922582-D61F-4ACC-A2C7-456A907D9D0C

Malinda Williams, a compelling and amazingly talented actress/producer who’s played in some of our most beloved shows/films like Soul Food: The Series, A Thin Line Between Love & Hate, and The Wood! Tariq Walker, an award-winning journalist and successful media executive who’s made powerful waves in the digital media world. Together they have launched This Is Leaving, a Travel & Lifestyle Blog Site/Business that allows us to see beautiful scenic views and adventures, intertwined with love through their lenses. Recently, they allowed me to interview them. Here’s what the recently engaged couple had to say:

1. Where are you both from?
Malinda: New Jersey

Tariq: Philadelphia

2. Can we talk about your successful careers for a moment? Malinda, How did you get into acting and Have you always had a passion for it?
Malinda: I started acting when I was around 12. I started in television commercials and then transitioned to film and T.V. in my teens.

Tariq, what made you want to become a journalist and work in digital media? Is it something you’ve always dreamed of doing?

Tariq: I was drawn to journalism because of my love of writing and communicating ideas via the written word. My career in digital media began as a combination of my passion for writing and science fiction, combined with the growth and development of the internet. It seemed a perfect fit.

3. Can you tell us about your Travel and Lifestyle Blog Site/Business, This is Leaving and How it all came about?
This Is Leaving was an idea conceived from our love of travel and wanting to share our adventures and its benefits with our family and friends. We realized the impact on them, we decided we wanted to share that with a larger audience. We’ve since expanded it to include content production and our first e-commerce platform, Shopshesgotahabit.com

4. What place have you had your most memorable experience thus far and Why?

Our most memorable experience was probably the trip we took to Barcelona.

Malinda: For me, it was a way to connect with Tariq. He spoke the language fluently and I didn’t so I really had to rely on him for communication and getting around. I felt I was vulnerable and that helped build a trust between us.

Tariq: For me, It was our first trip to Europe together and she trusted me enough to let me to do all the planning which was meaningful. It showed she trusted in my abilities and that it laid an important foundation for our relationship.

5. What’s the most delicious food you’ve eaten thus far? Where and What was it? Tuscany and Monterosso, Italy. In Tuscany, we were blessed to have a private cooking lesson with the executive chef. We helped him prepare a tasty red shrimp risotto and strawberry tiramisu – ridiculously delicious!!!

6. Why is traveling so important? What are some benefits of traveling?

We get to have all of these great experiences…we learn about ourselves, about the world and about each other and we get to bring all the best parts of those learned experiences home.

7. What advice would you give to someone out there, who might be hesitant when it comes to traveling to new, and very different places?
We always say let love drive you, not fear, hesitation, doubt or the unknown. You’d be surprised how the world opens up to you, when you open up to it. There’s so much out there waiting for you to discover it. It’s amazing!

8. Any new projects coming up that you’re working on and can tell us about?
We just launched the first of 2 planned e-commerce platforms. She’s Got A Habit is a wellness, lifestyle and retail site all inspired by world travel. Shopshesgotahabit.com

Be sure to check out their site! https://www.thisisleaving.com/

 

Thank you both so much for taking time out!