She really needs no introduction. But let me tell you a little something about her…
She is a unique treasure. A gem of a beauty and filled with sparkling passion. When in rare form, she holds the power to eat you up and spit you out if she so chooses. IF SHE CHOOSES. She smells like a meadow growing berries and other sweet fruits of her magnetic labor. The meadow has never seen a drought and knows no drought. She can run a marathon of sturdy circles around you without ever growing tired. The most seasoned marathon runner can’t even hold a flame to her. There is no one quite like her. She houses a suction of magical kryptonite. She is hypnotic. She is powerful. She is great. An aphrodisiac. Your only drug of choice. She is not of this world. Fair warning…
If she invites you in and you oblige. Well…if you enter the great walls of her. If she gets a hold of you, you will forever be changed. Be careful love.
When I awake in the mornings, there is a peaceful noise. There is a permanent smile that appears to have awaken within me. I’ve never felt a smile quite like this one before. Well…I have in my dreams a few times. It’s so powerful, for it to have reached my soul, powerful. My soul is smiling so vibrantly. I can’t seem to contain my excitement or my energy. My energy is not just good. It’s electric and it’s a shock to me. I can only imagine what it will do once I’m in the company of others. Maybe it will latch onto them and work its wonderful magic. The dark clouds might still come around but I can’t acknowledge them anymore. I’m too full on peace and happiness. The sun drowns out the clouds and is always shining so bright wherever I go. I put my trust into the trail of sunshine and now I’m shining. I’m floating because I feel lighter. I’m free and I’m happy now.
How did I reach my “Happy Now”? I’m doing what makes me happy. Oh and I removed toxic beings & things from my life.
I can do whatever it is that I want to do, no matter how many people tell me no.
Fear will not survive, if it ever tries to break into my life.
Doubt is now a resident of my ancient memories.
I am built to surpass every storm of struggle.
I’m going to get better because I know I deserve better.
I can build my own empire and create my own wealth.
When negativity trys to creep in through my door, I will shut it immediately.
I’m going to be okay.
It is my duty to believe in myself and to love myself even if no one else does.
If it’s a small dream or a big dream, it is still my dream. I will follow it until the end.
I will stay focused on my path and go to war with any obstacles that meets my eyes.
I see my potential and I will run to the stars with it.
I will never allow my past to define my evolution.
I will start forgiving myself and stop punishing myself for all the mistakes I was meant to make.
I will practice self care more and take better care of myself.
Quitting can never exist in my mind nor my vocabulary.
I will remove any and all things that creates toxins for me.
I am always fully responsible for my own happiness no matter what.
I sit on a solid throne. A throne that I’ve earned and built using concrete made of my own sweat and tears. A throne that I’ve taken my precious time building and I will not grant anyone’s access to tear me down from it.
I will be doing MONTHLY book reviews just FYI. I love to read!!
I just finished reading Petals of Truth by Author LaToya Spencer. The words not only spoke to me. They spoke to my heart and my soul. I appreciated her transparency and relatable expressions. It’s filled with encouraging quotes and beautiful poetry that helps you to understand and to know that you are not beyond repair. If you have been through heartbeak, or abuse. If you lack self love, have low self esteem, or if you’ve ever been through struggles. ANYTHING!! This book gives you hope. I found myself talking out loud alot to myself lol reading it because I could deeply relate to what she has been through in life. I really enjoyed it! Check it out and Support this Queen!! You can purchase her book on Amazon and Find her on Instagram @toyaandrea
When I was younger, I wanted to be perfect so bad! I wanted to have the perfect body, the perfect skin, and the perfect life. Now, I want no parts of it. I run from it. I always say, “I’m not perfect, and I never want to be.” It’s soooo true for me. Being imperfect keeps me real, humble, and down to earth which is everything I need to be. Everything I strive to be. Everything I want to be. I want to embody what’s real, and true. Perfect doesn’t exist, and it never did. What was I chasing? Why did I want to be so perfect? Why couldn’t I embrace my flaws, and imperfections? I looked in the mirror, and I saw this face that I hated. I hated my acne riddled skin. I hated my hair. I hated my nose, and my eyes. Hate is such a strong word, I know. But it’s what I felt at the time. I kept wishing I was someone else other than myself. If you had asked me back then, “Linnea, name one thing you like about yourself.” I would’ve drawn a huge blank. Ask me that same question today, and I’ll name 10 things before you even finish your sentence. I embrace every single flaw, and they’re what makes me…ME! See, the world is not with me whenever I’m looking into my mirror. I’m alone which is why it’s so important that I like/love what I see. I have to live with myself. I now know, and understand that PERFECT was always a figment of my imagination. I was on a dead end road, on a journey to perfection. A road that ultimately leaded me nowhere, and ended in disappointment. I set myself up for it though. I wasted so much time trying to be something I would never be. Perfect just doesn’t exist in any way, shape, or form in my world. In fact, it doesn’t exist in any world.
I have self doubt sometimes. Sometimes I’m not sure if what I’m doing is right. Sometimes I’m not sure if people will like what I do, or say. Sometimes I wonder if it’s too little, or too much. Even with this blog and my social media outlets. I question whether I should even be doing this. I ask myself, Why? Then, I remember why. But it’s MY WHY. I remember that I’m not doing this for anyone other than myself and if people get something from my writings, my posts, my words, my stories, and my life. That would be a WELCOMED added bonus for me!! I remember that MY WHY is what makes me happy. It’s what curves my anxiety because I can express myself in the ways that I want to and it makes me happy. Ways that are acceptable to me. I remember that I have to please myself, and do what’s right for me whether it be received, or not. Some might view it as a risk. A risk I’m willing to gladly take. If I keep doubting myself, then I won’t get very far at all. I have to live in my truth and do what I want. I can never allow doubt inside because it will never leave. It’ll get comfortable and keep me complacent. I can never sacrifice my dreams, visions, plans, and goals for doubts. That would be an epic fail on my part. Doubt is so powerful and it hinders many people. If you are doubting yourself, remember YOUR why.