My soul is the keeper of my words. It tells me what to write, what to say. I can’t control what it concocts. I move when it tells me to. I move wherever it tells me to. When it compels me, I listen. The sound is deep. I am its vessel designed by intricate parts. Lined with complexities and substance. Are you receiving this? When my soul starts speaking to me, the noise outside begins to suffocate. The world outside no longer exists. The feeling is divine. My soul speaks a language that I understand more than my native tongue. It’s solid. It recognizes the good and the bad energies. I rely heavily on my soul to lead me and I am in tuned. If you want to get to know me, you must bring depth to the table and match my soul at eye level. Then, I will let you know if we approve or not.
To all my Fellow Bloggers who participated in Blogmas, WELL DONE!!!! It is not easy coming up with 25 Blog Posts and to be clear I had only planned out some of these posts. For most of them, I was just winging it, and I did not stick to only holiday themed posts. It’s especially hard to meet such a challenge, if you have lots of other things on your plate of life. I almost quit a few days back LOL!! I attempted Blogmas last year and I failed. But this year I completed the challenge, and what an awesome challenge it was! I’m proud of myself and you should be proud of yourself!!! If you took the time out to read my Blog, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I hope you enjoyed my creativity, expressions and thoughts. My hope as with any of my Blog Posts, is that you leave here inspired, motivated, that your thoughts are provoked, and maybe you’re a little hot and bothered LOL! I thoroughly enjoyed this, and now I will be taking a break from this Blog!!
Now, it’s time for me to enjoy Christmas and spend time with my family!❤️
M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S!!!!!!!!!
B E W E L L!!!!!
I can’t believe we’re pretty much at the the end of 2019. It was a year filled with ups and downs. I lost my beloved Aunt C. I received a promotion on my job. I had to cut off some friends who were never really friends. A thousand people listened to my podcast which I’m happy about. That’s a thousand people that I reached and possibly inspired which is always one of the goals.
I’m walking into 2020 on full speed. I have so many plans, goals, and more dreams. Here’s a list.
- Travel more. I want to see unfamiliar places and try new foods. California is up first. I would love to go on a Eat Pray Love type of journey.
- Create and sell merchandise. I want to build my brand and create positive, empowering, and inspirational creative merchandise.
- Release my book. I’m going to release my Erotic Thriller Novel. Who knows? Maybe it’ll be made into a movie later on down the line. Anything is possible.
- Purchase a house. This I am determined to do!
- Step up my Podcast game. I’m getting a new mic and some other equipment. It’s all good now, but there is always room for improvement. Also, I still don’t know if I’m completely ok with my Podcast cover art.
- Healthy Diet and Workout. I’ll be continuing my Healthy eating and weight loss journey. I want to lose in total 25-30 pounds. I already lost 10.
- Reconnect and create a solid bond with my sisters. We share the same Father.
- Attend concerts. I love music and I want to see it and feel it live.
- Go ice skating and skiing.
That’s it for now.
I’ve always been a researcher. I don’t take the words of others to mind permanently nor do I take it to heart. I like to seek my own answers. Recently, Trump was impeached. The word impeachment brought excitement and pure joy to most. Lots of people (NOT ALL) immediately took to social media to express their elation because they understood that to mean, he would be removed from office effective immediately. Not knowing or understanding that it’s a process. Impeachment is great and all. But now it must move to the Senate, and they will make the final decision for actual removal. The Republicans control that house which means he most likely won’t actually be removed. Unfortunate, yes. It seems that many people are not very in tuned with politics and how it operates. You should know that I used to be the same way. Politics was so boring to me and I felt like it didn’t affect me. I could’ve cared less! Now that my mentality has changed, I view politics quite differently. I view the world differently. Through time consuming research, I learned that in fact, it is an extremely important piece to life’s puzzle. It does affect me and it does affect you which brings me to the point of this post. If you don’t understand something, If you are questioning something that someone has told you, do your own research. You never have to accept one answer to anything. I’m not saying that you have to heavily indulge in politics. You don’t have to watch CNN all day or keep up with every single update. I’m simply saying at least research and learn how politics operate so that you can be knowledgeable. Knowledge is Power. I’m saying to simply learn how it affects you. Honestly, as with anything you should want to be well informed. I sure do!!!
My eyes latched onto to yours, and I got a glimpse of your soul. Our souls connected and created one. The energy we share is electric. I can feel when your vibe is off and you can feel when my vibe is off. When our minds meet, the dialogue is eclectic. I get lost in your company when we’re together. The outside world doesn’t exist when I’m in your sensual midst. It’s just me and you. When we make love, my soul moans, and becomes detached for a moment. You make me climb into my feelings in unfamiliar places. I don’t recognize this kind of love. My soul yearns for you when we part ways. You’re the one. You’re my only one. My soul mate.
Have you met your Soul mate yet?
I asked my Instagram Fam to send me questions to answer on my Blog! Here it goes!
1. What’s next for your Podcast in 2020, besides having me as a guest?
I’m going to have more guests on. I’m working on having some guests on that are in the political world. It’s going to be more great conversations, more informative conversations, and even more transparency. I can’t wait to share!!!!!
2. How do you get those famous people to come on your Podcast show?
When I first decided that I wanted to interview famous people, and to be clear, I have all types of dope guests on my show. It is not just limited to famous people. But to answer your specific question, I started doing research on how to go about reaching out to them. I came across an interesting article that gave tips and examples on how to contact them. I’ll tell you this, some people are more accessible than you think. At the same time, there’s lots of tedious hard work, research, and rejection involved. I’m thankful for each and every guest who graces my show!! It’s amazing to be able to connect with so many different people who are doing so many different things! I love it!!
3. What do you have planned for 2020?
Omg! Where do I begin?!! I plan on traveling, releasing my CRAZY LOL Erotic Thriller Novel, upgrading my Podcast equipment, growing my podcast more, collaborations, building my brand, creating merchandise and just being successful.
4. How do you let go of a friend who cut you off because you told them they were not supportive of you?
A real and true friend is always supportive even if you’re doing something they don’t necessarily agree with. They’ll usually support you anyway. Maybe this friend felt like they were supporting you, but not in the way you thought it should be done. So they got offended. Cutting you off is a bit extreme, but it also speaks volumes. I don’t know all the facts so I can’t get deep into this. To answer your question, if this friend cut you off, you might have no choice but to let go. It sounds like they’ve made their choice. Don’t hold onto someone or something that doesn’t want to hold onto you.
5. What did you learn in 2019? What are you hoping for in 2020?
Wow! I learned that life is way too short. People will be people. If I don’t take the time to heal my wounds, I will always be scarred and the brokenness will never subside. I learned that I can’t change people, but I can inspire them. I have to do what’s best for me and do what makes me happy.
In 2020, I’m hoping to find a million dollars on the ground or in my cash app LOL!!! I’m hoping to travel to California, Atlanta, Jamaica, and so many more places. I’m hoping that I can become even more successful. I’m hoping to evolve even more!! I’m hoping to exercise my creativity more!!
6. I read some of your sexy Blogs and stories. Why do you write about sex?
Sex is a of life and it’s intriguing. It’s a beautiful thing in my opinion. Sex mixed in with creativity equals a great read! Why not write about it? I enjoy it!! People enjoy it!!
7. Who’s your favorite actress and why?
Viola Davis! Some people are gifted in a special way and they’re meant to do certain things. That’s her! She portrays every role with a unique conviction. I pray I can interview her one day!
8. Who are you going to interview on your Podcast next?
It’s a secret! LOL!!!
That’s it for Q & A! Thank you to all who participated and sent in questions!! Thank you and thank you for taking time out to read my Blog!!
To be completely honest, I once considered having plastic surgery because I hated my body. After having three children, my stomach wasn’t as flat as it once was. I gained a considerable amount of weight, and I just wanted zero parts of my new body. At the time, I didn’t fully understand nor did I realize just how much my body would change after giving birth to three children. So, I decided that plastic surgery would prove to be the perfect fix. I was thin and fit once upon a time, and I wanted to get back to that. I wanted to get back to that body quick, and scrolling through social media didn’t help. I used to wear cropped tops all the time. My stomach used to be my most favorite part of my body. I was always showing it off and I wanted to be able to do that again. I wanted to wear bikinis on the beach. I just didn’t feel sexy, and I wanted to feel sexy again. I didn’t believe I could be sexy again or wear some of the same things until I fixed my body. My body wasn’t pretty and I hated what I saw in the mirror.
The internet is filled with false expectations, and misinterpretations of a woman’s body form. They lead you to believe that all women should have flat stomaches, small waists, and big butts. They want you to believe that once the baby is born, it’s all about the rapid bounce back or the snap back. It’s misleading and it has never been my reality. The truth is that all of our bodies are different, and respond differently after giving birth. There’s no need to rush, and there is nothing wrong with real natural bodies. Social Media has some of us questioning whether a woman’s natural body is real or not simply because so many women are getting surgery nowadays. It’s hard for some to believe the same body built in the operating room, can also be built in the gym. It can be done and it has been done. I was so close to jumping on that operating table because I was insecure, I fell into the social media trap, and I just felt unattractive. Then I woke up, and I thought about it more and more. I thought about it deeper. I had to ask myself some very imperative questions. Why was I doing this? What are the side effects? Is it going to fix my insecurities? Is it going to make me feel better? Is it going to make me pretty? Is it going to make me more desirable? Is it going to fix me? When I answered these questions, I knew that I couldn’t go through with the surgery. I couldn’t. Yes plastic surgery would’ve fixed my outer appearance, but it wouldn’t fix my struggles within. I had LOTS of struggles buried inside of me, and it would’ve only served as a temporary mask. I am in no way knocking women who’ve gotten or who are thinking about getting plastic surgery. Do whatever makes you happy! But you should know that plastic surgery is not a cure for insecurities, or a lack of self love and self validation. You can sweep your shit under the rug all day, but it’ll still be there under the rug, waiting on you to deal with it. I’m saying if you’re going to do it, make sure you’re doing it for the right reasons. No I didn’t go through with the surgery, but I did change my eating habits. I did go to the gym. I also started being more kind to myself, more patient with myself, and I started my long journey to self love. It sure wasn’t a quick process nor was it easy. However, it was worth it!!!