Alone

 

 

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Alone in the dark…

I feel like an outcast. All my life, I’ve always felt like the outcast. Alone with just my thoughts is a dangerous place to be I know. Yet, it’s an intriguing place to be. The darkness conjures up all of my ill feelings. Feelings that I hold against myself daily that I try to keep hidden deep within me. I have a few friends here and there. But you know what, I feel more alone whenever I’m surrounded by people. How can this be? Those people never really seem to notice though. I smile and I laugh. It’s a mask that I wear and I wear it so well. Why am I like this? Sometimes I prefer to be alone because I’ve become so accustomed to the darkness, the loneliness, and the negative thoughts that have kept me company for so long. The worst part is that I believe those thoughts. My mind feeds off of those thoughts. They comfort me and they’re my friends. My best friends, actually. They tell me to be sad, that it’s better for me to be alone, to not have any contact with the outside world, and they keep me far away from anything or anyone trying to rescue me from myself. Twisted right? No…what’s twisted is that I fell into the trap and I’m comfortable there. Will someone save me or will I have to save myself?

Depression is real and it preys upon the weak. It preys upon the weak and the strong. Check on your strong friends and your weak friends. Check on all your friends and loved ones. Check on someone today. In some cases, an immediate intervention is needed. Sometimes a person seems happy, but pay attention to their eyes. The eyes will always lead you to their truth. It is imperative that we all take great care of our mental health and that we seek help when necessary. Seek help when you can’t help yourself. Mental Illness is real and it plays evil tricks with your mind and can end in tragedy. Please seek help!

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WOLF HER

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Not your average wolf…

I’m normally quiet and I like to stay hidden. Though, I’ve been known to bring the noise when they send for me. I eat diamonds for breakfast and spit out gems. I run with wolves, but they always end up following my lead. It’s shocking to some that a pack of wolves would choose me to be their Queen. They can feel my strength, my aura, and I’m very hard to refuse. Depending on how you treat me love, I can be the beginning to your end. I am invincible and sometimes quite unrecognizable. I’m trying to warn you darling for I possess the power to make things, and individuals go invisible. Have you ever heard of Fire and Ice? I refuse to travel without bringing the storm. I’ll bring the forest down, shake the trees, and break the ground. I’m fluent in fire and will burn you if you speak out of turn. HER tongue is wicked. You’ve been warned!

I am Wolf HER!

I STARTED A PODCAST!!

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Hello World!!!

This is Linnea, the woman behind this blog and NOW PODCASTER!! On Saturday 7/27/19, I woke up in the morning and decided to launch my Podcast!! IT’S SO EXCITING!! I’m genuinely happy about it!! I named my PODCAST Linnea Presents: Unpacking The Box. I chose this name because I don’t ever want to put into a box and I will be unpacking many topics! You can listen to it on Apple Podcasts, RadioPublic, Anchor, Spotify, Google Podcasts and PocketCasts right now! It will be available on more platforms soon I hope! I’ve already done six episodes and they’re available now! You can also keep up with updates and episodes on my Podcast by following my Instagram page @  unpacking_the_box

Now, what is it all about?!! This is me in my most unapologetic form. It will be raw, real, uncut, explicit at times, informative, entertaining, and just fun! It will be a space, a comfortable space of course, and it’ll be like you and I are in the room together chopping it up like old friends. I will unpack topics on life, love, sex, relationships, men, women, empowering others, mental health, body image, politics, celebrity news, local news, a breakdown on some my BLOG POSTS and sooo much more!!!! NOTHING IS OFF LIMITS! I guess…it’s a extension of my Blog…BUT wayyy more fun lol!!!  I will also have guests on from time to time to weigh in on topics, and interviews! I hope you will take this journey with me!!! I WELCOME ANY AND ALL FEEDBACK!! YOU CAN MESSAGE ME HERE, ON IG OR EMAIL ME at unpackingtheboxpodcast@gmail.com to tell me about ANY TOPICS YOU WANT ME TO DISCUSS, or ANY QUESTIONS YOU MAY HAVE FOR ME, OR IF YOU JUST WANNA COMMENT ON THE SHOW IN GENERAL. Thank you if you support me in any way, shape or form! I appreciate it!! Share, and Tell a friend!

Always know that you can do ANYTHING you set your mind to do. Do what makes you happy and just go for it!! Life is too short!

Be well!!!!

Snake In My Tunnel

I opened the door to my damp tunnel of pleasure and there he was. What a beautiful creature. What a beautiful sight to see. I invited him in and he came in on a smooth slither of excitement. I grabbed him with my hands and told him to follow me on the trail of soaked tracks. I led him all the way back into the depths of my darkness until he reached a dead end. He became aroused in shock and amazement by how deeply rooted the tracks were. He didn’t realize my tunnel was just as great as my land. He was most definitely enjoying himself. Exploring, twirling all around going in, and out of the puddles of water that he kept on discovering. That is…until he had enough. It seemed like he was convulsing at one point. It looked as if his soul was lost. He was satisfied with his visit. The night was over and he left. 

My Interview with Jamell Crouthers

C7B98522-9DC7-4AE6-B743-82EC68EA4BF2Jamell Crouthers is a very talented poet, author, and podcaster. He’s the author of 11 books and counting. Jamell has a passion for writing about topics that nobody likes to speak on. Topics that are taboo, and topics that will provoke thoughts. He delves into societal issues in such a way, that I’ve never seen before. I met him through social media, and I’m a fan of his work. He’s one of the people who’ve inspired me to start my own Blog. Recently, Jamell gave me the opportunity to interview him.
 
1. What made you want to become a writer, and at what age did you start?
I never thought I’d ever become a writer, it just happened. I started writing poetry at age 13, and I always wrote on and off, it wasn’t consistent for the longest time. Then when my 30s came along I started writing more short poems and eventually it led to me sharing them on social media.
2. I read that you didn’t think you could utilize your talent to tell stories, and write books. Why did you think that? 
For me it was about writing short poems that focused on my life, experiences, and things that are going on around us. I didn’t see myself writing books but after a vacation to Los Angeles, that’s when I thought to myself, I should consider doing it. Then I started brainstorming what I wanted to write about and how to develop characters and storylines that relate to people in today’s world.
3. Why poetry? What do you love about it?
Poetry is a form of expression where there are no rules to it. With all of the societal issues going on in this world and me being able to tell a story in poetry prose format, I knew I can do it, it was just a matter of how.
Writing poetry for me is always therapeutic, it’s my way to get out my thoughts. A lot goes on in my mind and I can’t always talk to people so I write books. When I started to write books, it was creating characters, developing storylines and then putting myself in their shoes to tell their story.
 
4. You talk about societal issues a lot, What’s one experience that you’ve had with society that has impacted your life, and where does your passion come from?
One big one was when I was in college and a young woman was raped at a college party involving a fraternity and she never reported it. That impacted me at age 19 so when I wrote The World We Live In, Christina is that young lady I went to college with, the only difference is Christina reports it and deals with the repercussions and social stigmas that come with it.
My passion comes from watching the world and how bad it really is right now. While most of us are able to live our daily lives, there are people who are in need of help. Knowing that my stories, blogs, podcasts, audiobooks and videos can impact someone, that’s why I give it my all everyday.
5. What are your thoughts on this administration, and the state of this country right now? 
This country is a mess, has been a mess and will continue to be no matter what. Every administration since I’ve been born has dealt with some sort of war (war on drugs, crack epidemic, incarceration of Latino and black men, police brutality, increase of homelessness in major cities, wars in other countries to take control of their natural resources), it isn’t necessarily this administration specifically that has this country in a mess, it’s just more divide among us (racial, religious, gender) which I speak on in America: A Country Divided.
 
6. Thoughts on police brutality, and if you were given the task to fix it. How would you fix it, or can it be fixed in your opinion? Hypothetically speaking. 
It starts at the top and then it trickles down, take the time to think about who’s giving the orders (and it’s not the government, think deeper). Next it’s holding good cops morally responsible for doing the right thing in reporting racism, corruption and illegal activities. It’s also exposing the corruption that goes on in the justice system and how cases are handled with shootings (most cases are handled by the same District Attorneys and prosecutors who work with these police officers). That’s just a small piece of my thoughts on how to start fixing things.
 
7. What advice would you give to someone who wants to become a author?
Learn the business, write what you love, not what’s trendy and understand there’s a lot of work that has to be done. Self-publishing is the way to go as you have more control over your royalties, your vision and decision-making. Always budget yourself and don’t feel that you have to spend thousands of dollars to publish your book and get it to bestseller status.
8. Any new projects coming up, that you’re working on that we should look out for?
December-Code Blue Parts 4 & 5 release (Code Blue 1 is 99 cent in all bookstores right now)
February-The World We Live In Parts 4 & 5 releases
April-The Struggles and Growth of a Man Part 3 releases
May-The Struggles and Growth of a Man Part 4 releases
June-The Struggles and Growth of a Man Part 5 releases
September-Kids With Guns releases
December-Kids With Guns Part 2 releases
Website: www.aquarianmind.info (all of my books are there, social media pages and podcast).
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Hope you enjoyed this interview, and make sure you go check out some of Mr. Jamell Crouthers books!!

Her Thoughts

D7A93F70-B5BB-4A58-A784-4014827B89A8As I step even deeper into my thirties, it’s becoming harder, and harder for me to befriend women. Not because I don’t want to befriend them. I love making new friends. But, it’s way more complicated than that. It’s because most of us women are just alike and we tend to bump heads for that reason alone. Most of us have trust issues. Most of us are stubborn. Some of us are mean. Some of us have the jealousy and envy trait. Some of us are extremely toxic by all accounts. Some of us are messy and like to keep drama going. Some of us have an overflow of negativity running within. Some of us have deeply rooted insecurities, that we’ve yet to address which can ruin, and challenge any relationship. But, do you know what boggles my mind, more than anything?! Some women don’t even know how to react to being complimented by another woman. Sometimes they’ll even accuse the woman of being a fraud. I think it’s sad. Sad because it’s so rare that we don’t even know how to process it. We don’t know how to process a freaking compliment!! It just makes me wonder why. Why are we like this? Why can’t we get along? Why do we treat each other like this? Why can’t women get along? I honestly don’t know why. I’ll probably never find out the answers to these questions. However, what I do know is, that I am a woman who chooses to, and will continue to inspire, encourage, uplift, motivate, and empower women. I will also compliment other women. I will be a woman who raises her daughter to do the same. I’ve already started planting the positive seeds in my daughter’s mind. She needs to understand and know that her light will never be dimmed just because she lit someone’s else’s. She will shine even brighter. A woman standing alone possesses GREAT power. But women standing amongst many women possess the GREATEST power. 

 

 

 

Be well! 🙂

Our Weakness

I’ve stayed in this relationship longer than I should have because of YOU. I’ve stayed up well into the wee hours of the morning FOR YOU, knowing damn well I had to get up early for work/school the next morning, AND I could barely focus on my work because of YOU. On top of that, my body ached all over the place because of YOU. I’ve allowed HIM to do things to me because of YOU, things I knew I had no business allowing. At times, I’ve turned a blind eye on many occasions because of YOU, when I should’ve had my eyes wide opened the most. I’ve turned down invites to various places because of YOU, and I really wanted to go. I’ve cut some of my phone conversations too short, with some of my best girlfriends because of YOU. To be honest, I’ve neglected so many people for YOU. I gave up the keys to my car frequently because of YOU which is something I vowed never ever to do. I even gave HIM some of my hard earned money because of YOU, and let’s not talk about all the things I’ve purchased for HIM because of YOU. I’ve said yes to HIM way too many times to count because of YOU, when I should’ve yelled no. I’ve cried because of YOU. I’ve felt crazy, and actually went crazy because of YOU. You could say that, I’ve pretty much been on an emotional wreck of a roller coaster because of YOU. I want to leave HIM, really I do. But it’s YOU that I can’t seem to break up with. It’s hard to let go of  YOU. YOU are what I crave the most, so much so, that I can always taste it. YOU just make me feel so good. Just the thought of YOU turns me on. My relationship with YOU is far more complicated than the relationship I have with HIM. The truth of the matter is, YOU’VE always been extremely good to me, treated me like a Queen, and pleased me in ways I will always treasure, ways I could never forget, while driving me crazy at the same damn time! YOU are my addiction, and I can’t shake it. You know, YOU have this real funny affect on my mind, and my body. My heart wants me to leave HIM because he keeps hurting it. But, my mind, and my body wants to stay with YOU because you make them feel great. But, even if I can build up enough nerve, and enough strength to finally leave HIM. Is there another DICK out there just like YOU, that could really replace YOU?! Can another DICK fill YOUR big shoes? Can another DICK make me feel as good as you make me feel? Can another DICK make me cum more than multiple times with no breaks in between? Can another DICK fuck me out of commission, and hit all the right places exactly how I like it?! How I expect it?! Can another DICK make me scream until my voice is gone? I’m just so used to YOU, and I’m so in love with YOU, that I can’t fathom another. It’s complicated, I know.