The Absentee Father
I’m not saying you can’t see your child, and I would never keep him from you. I would never deny you that right because my father was never around for me, and I’ve always yearned for that kind of love. The kind of love that only a father could give, and I wanted to give back the kind of love that only a daughter could give her father. So why would I ever want to deny our child that kind of love? Deny one of my many reasons for living, their right?! Their right to have a relationship with their father?!! Deny that kind of love? No, I only want to do what’s best for our child. I only want to see our child happy because our baby being happy, is what I strive for, and it means more than the world to me. It’s what keeps me going, and gives me a reason to KEEP going. I just want you to be consistent because children need consistency. People in general need consistency. I just want you to keep your promises. I just want you to be honest, and to keep our child safe. But more importantly, I just hope, wish, and pray that you would understand. Understand that I am trying! God only knows, I’m trying my hardest to make sure our child never ever wants for anything. I’m trying to make sure our child is fed, bathed, clothed, and has a roof over their head. I’m trying to make sure our child goes to school everyday so that they can one day, become successful. So that our child surpasses us both, like only he/she should. I’m trying to show our child the world, while simultaneously trying to give our child the world, AND trying to keep him/her safe from it. I’m working hard at not one, but two jobs, trying to survive, and trying to stay above water. I’m just trying to maintain. Don’t you understand? Can you acknowledge that? Yes…yes…Acknowledgement is rare, few, and far between. I’m a damn good mother to our child! At least try to understand why, and where I’m coming from because I am indeed coming from a real place. A real place of anger, and frustration mixed in with love. Anger because you treat me like a stranger, who’s trying to kidnap the child we share together, and hold him/her in captivity indefinitely. You don’t listen, or at least not with the intent to understand. Frustrated because you think I’m coming from a bitter place and love…well…we did lay down together, AND we did create a beautiful being. A beautiful being who looks just like the both of us. You see…love was once upon a time for us, and let us never forget.
Oh and by the way. Your money is all good yes, for it will help with material things. However, it will never be the driving force when it comes to raising our child the right way, with the right mentality, and with the right morals. Along with the right values, and the tools to survive mentally in this evil world. Money can only go so far, and can only buy so much when it comes to our mental, our physical, and our emotional state of being. I just want you to be…no I NEED you to be present. Consistently present.
Every mother out there who feels misunderstood
Every mother out there who has been labeled “bitter”
P.S. And No I don’t want you back. I’ve moved on, and hopefully you have to. Peaceful Coparenting is all I’m after love. Peace&Blessings