I feel like an Octopus whose tentacles are being pulled, and stretched in every direction. I feel like my mind went missing, and everyday I hold a search party for it. Everyday I pray it returns. I just can’t seem to find it anywhere. I feel like I’m going crazy, and in my head, all I can hear are these little innocent cute yet very annoying sounds, sounds of little voices calling me repeatedly. Annoying because they keep calling me a name over, and over and over again. Yes a name, and not a bad name. But, it sure isn’t my legal name. I just need to use the bathroom. As soon as my rear touches the toilet, the knocking on the bathroom door commences. They always find a way to disturb me. Sometimes I don’t even need to use the bathroom, and I use it only for sanctuary. I just want to go to sleep, but I have to take them to practice, go cheer them on at a game or a competition. I have to help them with their homework which can be frustrating in itself. Sure he could help me out with all these things. But, I’ll just have to redo it all over again anyway, the right way. I might as well do it myself. I’m starving, and I just want to eat a little something. But I have to make dinner for some very picky eaters, and I have to fix their plates first. I’m always the last person to eat. My mind is racing because I have so much to do with so little time to do it. I still have to iron their clothes for tomorrow. So much is expected of me, and I’m needed in more than one place at a time, at the same time. I’m feeling so drained, and nobody gets it. Nobody understands how tired I am. It’s hard on me and I love my family with every bone in my body. My bones are tired though. I’m tired, and I just need to rest.
Finally, I did everything but I’m exhausted beyond exhaustion. Oh but now, I have to get in a shower or bath, and perform. I have to put on an Oscar worthy performance. I have to do something to please him. I’m just too tired though, and I don’t feel like it tonight. I’ll do it tomorrow. I’m not doing it tonight, and off to sleep I go. This cycle repeats itself the very next day.
I JUST INVITED YOU INTO THE MIND OF A MOTHER.
First of all, know this! Understand this! There is no one like us. Mothers are beyond special. I can’t even put it into words. But I’ll try. Mothers can carry another human being or more than one human being at once, for 9 months or longer. Mothers produce food with nutrients for that human being. Mothers nurture like no other. Mothers protect like no other. Mothers possess a fearless strength of 10 men, that will be revealed to you immediately, if you mess with her human being. A strength that knows no bounds. Mothers love like no other. Mothers are professional multitaskers. Mothers wear so many different hats, and she wears them all well.
If you are a mother/wife/girlfriend/singlemother with kids I understand. We can all relate. Let me give you some unsolicited advice that may help you out a great deal. I don’t care what time of the day it is, you need to set aside 20 minutes, 30 minutes, 45 minutes, or an hour or 2 hours of everyday! You need to have some ME time! ME time is a must no matter what. Find a calming place first, wherever that might be for you. Listen to some soothing sounds of music, read a book, eat a snack, talk on the phone, browse social media, go for a walk, get a hobby, go to the gym or do whatever you WANT. Keyword “WANT”. Do exactly whatever it is, that you want to do! Do what makes you HAPPY! Another keyword “HAPPY”. If it makes you HAPPY, do that! You deserve it! There is nothing wrong with ME time! It’s healthy! Do this away from the kids, and away from the boyfriend or the husband. You need this for it will keep you sane. It will bring you peace. Be Well 🙂