Loving Myself

There is no greater love! SELF LOVE…It is truly the most amazing feeling, and the most amazing love that I have ever felt. It’s the best love that I have ever felt. It’s the most authentic love that I have ever experienced. It’s the truest form of love. A love that I never even knew existed. But, this love certainly did not come easy for me. I had to fight my way through. I went round for round which I lost many times. I had to have my heart ripped out, and handed back to me on several occasions. I had to be disrespected, lied to on countless occasions, degraded, cheated on, mistreated, and I had to endure verbal abuse. I had to cry until there were no more tears left to cry. I had to hit rock bottom. Rock bottom! Have you ever hit rock bottom before? Have you ever been, or felt so down in the dumps before, that all you could see was darkness at the end of the tunnel? Well, I have. There I was in a empty closet, the love of my life had just left me. My world seemed to be over because the relationship had consumed me. My life revolved around him. At least I thought he was the love of my life, though he wasn’t very nice to me. He mistreated me badly. But, I still wanted to be with him. How stupid of me right? I know now that he shouldn’t have been the love of my life, and I know now that he didn’t love me. That was no where near love. He made me feel like shit, and even pushed me down once. But back then, my self esteem, self confidence, and my self love was at an all time low. I mean, it was at the bottom of a rusty barrel somewhere. That particular relationship that I was in, was tumultuous, and was also a turning point for me. So, I finally got up, and out of the closet. I went to the bathroom, and looked in the mirror. I saw a image that I knew I never ever wanted to see again. A image of a broken woman, that’s been embedded into my head as a constant reminder, that I need to love myself, and I have to love myself. It’s a necessity in my life. I discovered Self Love after that. I felt so bad, and I knew that I never wanted to feel hurt like that again. I started to realize that it had to be something within me, something that kept attracting people who weren’t so good for me. I knew for certain that I had to do things differently, if I wanted different. “Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes”. That’s exactly what I did. I changed it up. I went from being sad, feeling defeated, to feeling mad! I was so angry with myself, and I couldn’t believe that I allowed someone to hurt me like that. Yes, I allowed it. I allowed it over, and over again. I didn’t know, or care to know my worth at that time. But, I would soon realize it after that. It took some time of course to build up my self esteem. Lots of time. But, I finally got to a great place in my life. Today, I can proudly say, and with assurance, that I love the shit out of myself! My self esteem, my self care, and my confidence, is now at an all time high! I’m so much stronger now, and better now. I will never allow anyone to treat me in a way, that I wouldn’t even treat myself. I will never allow anyone to disrespect me ever again because I will never disrespect myself. I know my worth, and I will never settle. I’m my biggest fan, and no I’m not cocky. There is a huge misconception when it comes to Self Love vs Cockiness. It’s totally different. Self Love is a necessity, it’s healthy, and it feels great. It will also help you when it comes to dealing with other people, and their treatment of you throughout life. Cockiness is just a facade that people hide behind, who in all actuality, don’t really love themselves in my humble opinion. They’re trying to fool themselves. A fake form of Self Love to just put it lightly. 

If you haven’t discovered Self Love yet, please start your journey today. But only if, and when you’re ready to. I’m just so in love with myself, and I want that for you ALL too! It will help you to better recognize how you should be loved by others. It will benefit you in so many great ways! 

Be Well! 🙂